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I'm disappointed not because of your isolated love but I'm disappointed as there's no truth and honesty in your love towards me. I'm not sad for being hurt by you but I'm deeply hurts in agony by your betrayals. So before my love became hatred for you, I wish to let you go gerl. When there's no more truth, honesty and faith in love. The love that we had won't last till eternity as our faith and principles in love will be shaken and will not stand strong against the test of time. Its better for me to cry in pain now as I'm not willing to cry painfully in the near future. I shall accepted my fate of losing you my love as I believe I might find your replacement by God will. What I had wanted is a soul mate to share my life with in happiness and sadness. Be it, if we are poor or rich. As such, I'm willing to let you go my love to be with the guy you loves and which can give you happiness and a comfortable life. A better life than what you are having now with me. A miserable life.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 posted at : 3:35 AM Thanks for the Painful N Sorrowfull Experiences
The laughter that i once had,was gone as tears had replaced it in my life. The love that i once had for you was lost as only hatred that develop with it. My life in this world was like a drama. Thanks for giving me a miserable and painful experiences as drinking poison or stabbing my hearts with knife are incomparable to it. Even though how painful and miserable i am, i will still carry on with my life with every little steps that i can muster as time after times are against me until the end.Thanks for the insults that you had throw to me, with all the hurts and my heart bleeding. Thanks for the insults and shamed that you had given to me without even sparing my dignity and pride.To you, I will like to say THANK YOU for the PAINFUL N SORROWFUL Experiences that u had given me. I know u will treat NZM better as i he was your First love. And I know you will do anything for him. Praising and worshipping him to accolade. Your love for him are much stronger that even the fear of committing sins won't stop.
Monday, May 12, 2008 posted at : 2:13 PM Its so painful
Well, life is such a misleading.Some time what you see or hear might not be the truth and what you might not see or hear might be the truth. Recently I found out something that make me depressed so much that I'm putting a smile but crying out loud inside me. What i believed to be the truth that time was not mean to be. Whatever the explanation or story was more than a farce. How i wish that i did not find out the whole truth so that i can just move on happily. But now it seem it will be more HARDER THAN BEFORE. Oh god please give me strength and wisdom to overcome this obstacles. There's no need to lie in the first place as I trust every word you said at that time but know,everything down the drain. All the reasons and explanations about things, I had already accepted but it make me feels like a fools. How could you do this to me. Was it my mistakes to lead you on....Is it fair for you to do this to me after all that i had done for you. Silently you are killing me inside without even blathering your eyes lid. Believing in every words you said and giving you so much patience and what did you give me....FARCE and LIES. Still I will act like an ignorant fool as I don't want confrontation that might hurts both of us or other parties. I will swallow my pride and make you think that I will not find out what you have done as I don't want to hurt you. Gone are the day when I can be very revengeful guy and show no mercy to peoples who hurts me as i have mellow down over the years. The other side of me which you don't know and never see before as you were lucky to meet me as I am now. Cool,calm and chill guy. Ever forgiving to people eventhough they have hurt me.I sit here on the stairs Cause I'd rather be alone.If I can't have the truth from you right now.I'll wait dear.Sometimes I get so tense but I can't speed up the time. But you know what, there's one more thing to consider. Said woman take it slow and things will be just fine. You and I'll just use a little patience. Said it B....ch take the time cause the lights are shining bright on you and I've got what it takes to make it. I won't fake it, I'll never break it cause I can't take it but just a little patience to spare, yeah, a little patience, and some more patience, which i could need some patience, and gotta have some patience, Oh God what it takes is just patience. A little patience is all I need as I'VE BEEN WALKING THE STREETS TONIGHT. JUST TRYING TO GET IT RIGHT. ITS HARD TO SEE WITH SO MANY PEOPLES AROUND. I DON'T LIKE BEING STUCK IN THE CROWD AND THE STREETS DON'T CHANGE BUT MAYBE THE NAMES. I AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THE GAME CAUSE I NEED THE TRUTH, CAUSE I NEED THE TRUTH, WHAT I NEED IS JUST THE TRUTH FROM YOU, ALL THIS TIME. posted at : 12:32 PM Untittle
You left me once.You were with someone else. Then I took you back, But now you have changed you mind again and you have betray my trust by being with another guy who used to be your lover. How could you love two guys at the same time.Confused and ridiculed, I rather be alone. No longer living just, Kinda here.You say you Still love me but secretly you had sex with him and confess to me, blaming , ( in the moment of time) prompt you to do what you had done which I don't know what to think and should I BELIEVED and TRUST. You say you are confused and I want you to know, that so am I and I guess that's OK but wait... What you did had hurt my pride and dignity as a MAN...I forgive you from the bottom of my hearts. For now... I wish the part of me that loves you, Was the part of me that's gone. I wish the parts of me you hurt were the part I would throw away.I wish the part of me that lingers on, Would leave and go away. And that the parts of me you touched could be the parts I cut away. I wish all this could be true, But if it was there would be nothing left.I wish we could start over,Or better yet never have had a beginning.Then you never could have hurt me Or loved me or touched me.But they will always be apart of me .Because I love you still. More than words can ever express. More than you will ever know. For reasons I don't even know. I love you still and always will be living with your betrayal. As I'm good as dead and my concerns was your happiness ALWAYS....
posted at : 12:00 PM ANGER
This ill temper I have is making me mad. I blow up and I don’t know why. I wish for just a moment I could handle my anger right. I wish for just a moment, I could love you right. I wish my attitude would just go away. I wish my anger would stay at bay. This outlook I have on life needs to change. This outlook I have you needs to say the same. I love you deep down inside. I wish you would see. That you’re the only princess for me. The anger I have deep in side, Comes out when I least expect it. This anger I have in me should just go away. This anger I have is an annoyance. This anger I have has messed my life up. This anger I have is stupid. Anger you have messed up my love for you. Anger you have messed up my life. Anger you have destroyed who I am inside and out. Anger you are the devil, Anger you are all that is bad. This anger I have in me has made me fight. A fight that was not worth it. Anger you made me hit the wrong person. Anger you made me do the wrong things. Anger you are the feeling that I would never miss. Anger you have caused me so much sorrow. Anger you have caused nothing but grief. Anger just go away
posted at : 12:00 PM This Woman
There is this woman made for me ,this woman craves for me. I love this woman so true and I know that she loves me too. There is this woman who kisses me, this woman pleases me. I take this woman to be my wife and I know she wants me for life.There is this woman who dreams about me. This woman makes love to me. When I lay against this woman to sleep. I feel a love towards her so deep. There is this woman who loves me and give birth to two wonderful kids. This woman was made for me. I desire her in every possible way. This woman is my night and day. The passion and love which make my heart beating continuously. My only woman, my only lady, my breath and soul.
posted at : 11:29 AM I MISS
I miss your special light,your shoulder to cry on,your smile,your jokes, and you making fun of me, I miss you a lot. I miss your hugs, your kisses,your warmth, your kind heart,your love, your selflessness,I miss you a lot. I miss a great man,a great father, a best friend,I miss you a lot. I miss our talks,our drives,our walks, our Holidays together,our phone conversations, our time,I miss you a lot. (But your special light shines on,in me and in all the people that ever loved you. And they are a lot). In honouring you, I vow to be a better man just like you, loving peoples around me. Dad this my tribute to you. Your unworthy son....... posted at : 11:11 AM Sex Without Love
How do they do it, the ones who make love without love?Sunday, May 11, 2008 Beautiful as dancers,gliding over each other like ice-skaters over the ice. Fingers hooked inside each other's bodies, faces red as steak and wine, wet as the children at birth whose parents are going to give them away. How do they come and come to the passion and escalate the desires to the still waters, and not love the one who came there with them. Light rising slowly as steam off their joined skin? These are the true rebellious, the opportunist, the pros, the ones who will not accept a false Messiah, love the moments and momentum instead of responsibility and commitment. They do not mistake the lover for their own pleasure, they are like great runners: they know they are alone with the road surface, the cold, the wind,the fit of their shoes, their over-all cardio-vascular health-- just factors, like the partner in the bed, and not the truth, which is the single body alone in the universe against its own best time. posted at : 9:22 AM Think u Know me
You Think U Know MeSaturday, May 10, 2008 BUT You Don't Know Me You claim my friendship But you don't know me. So articulate with your words,you preach your love.. But you don't know me. I will not be what you want me to be. Oblivious to my feelings you march unhindered. Some vision of what you think I am filling your mind.. But you don't know me. posted at : 12:52 PM Butterfly
Just like a butterfly,Flying freely in the sky without any obstacles,Peacefully and Calmly,Feeling happy and no worries,....That's the kind of expression you give me that caught my heart which make me want to fly with you, Looking from atop the problems that was created by peoples n the funny things or silly things they do unknowingly.Peoples, they like to argue or fights and this kind of expedition wont stop as it will be anthology of life's.The quietness will be gone and dreams will be lost but it will make oneself more brave in facing problems.Terminal of faith will be just a charity of heart as faithfulness will not last. So just fly away and be where u wanna be to find the happiness n loyalty or fly as high as u can to find eternity.......Being trapped or caught will depend on your judgement and being free will depend what you want in life
Wednesday, May 7, 2008 posted at : 12:55 PM is it fair to be in love with 2 peoples
Recently i was asked this question. Is fair to be in love with 2 persons at e same time? It came from someone that had been married and have kids. I ponder for a while n gave her no and yes for an answer. She asked me why i gave such an answer n i told her my reasons. For me if u r single or attached n u in love with 2 persons at the same time that's OK as u might need to think which one is better for u but if u r married........ She shouldn't even think about it. Even though the other party might be her ex flame as it will be injustice done to her hubby. She beg to differ as to her love is just blind... You just cant control feelings...Nonsense is what i feels...Its all up in the head as you can control your feeling...Furthermore as a married couples they bound by vows and responsibility such as giving a good family for the kids. Its not just about her only...But she still cant accept my reason n i should not bother about it anymore. Just wish her all the best in her marriage.....
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